I continue studying history, fully aware that my seemingly innate idealism and optimism are up for debate, maybe death.
Do I allow myself the expense of discouragment? Do I shift to the darkness and jadedness of despair? Do I retreat to my own little sanctuary?
I think not. Maybe awakening is not possible for all in this lifetime, but it is possible for some. Maybe this one person cannot make a difference for the world, but this life can make some positive difference. This light can shine wherever it finds itself on the path of this life. A little here, a little there adds up to something more than if it didn't happen.
So I urge you not to give up. All of our little bits add up. Who you are and what you do matter.