How To Do It?

I was reading in Matthew Fox's book on Meister Eckhart that Carl Jung's ideas on synchronicity were influenced by the work of Niels Bohr, Wolfgang Pauli and Albert Einstein. One notion was that since the atom is a basic building block and great energy can come from it, and the psyche is a basic unit of a human, great energy might come from it too if it could be opened.

That ties in to one of my favorite Eckhart quotes that I use at the begining of my "21 Seeds" book - the seed of God is in you - a pear seed turns into a pear tree, etc. So how does the seed of God in us get set free to sprout and bear fruit?

Any seed has to have its shell fractured to let out the power of the imprisoned future plant or animal. The shell cracks, the sprout emerges and heads toward the light, it develops and becomes what it was intended to be whether a radish, a daisy, a kitten or a baby human.

The right conditions must exist for a plant to do this - good soil, moisture, warmth, etc. I begin to wonder what is the right condition for humans, especially since relatively few of us historically have made significant progress in letting the imprisoned splendor of the Presence of God shine forth.

I've often joked that I must be a hard nut to crack, since I've had such enormous blows during this lifetime. But I'm only partially out of the shell. So it must be more than that. When I look at those of whom I am aware that have shone the imprisoned splendor, I also see that they spent significant time in meditation and prayer and not engaged in the throes of the governments or wars or whatever of the day.

Once upon a time, not so very long ago, I felt I was making great progress, but I got hit with blow after blow of one thing after the other. I ceased daily reading, meditation and prayer time. My devotion became sporadic. So, for me, I see I need to return to regular spiritual practices and not allow the situations pressing upon me to distract from my purpose in life.
The last 3 years have been ultra challenging, and just to rise above each day has taken most of my focus, leaving less time and energy than usual for spiritual practice.

If I am going to aim to let the Light of God shine fully through me, then I must not be swayed from what is my "assignment" for any reason whatsoever

And I ask, what else is needed to release the power of God from the psyche in me? Why did I come here to earth if not to be all that I can be? Time is not on my side as I am now in the elderly classification and have been for some time. Lord, what would You have me do?

Surprisingly Painful

3 of us drove a long way to see the much touted film, the current topic de'jour because of supposed hacking by the government the subject of the "comedy." We had seen people coming out of showings glowing with patriotism and smiling because it was funny.

There were a handful of funny moments. There were barrels full of cringing, disgusting, crude, ugly, horrid moments. It was like it was written and directed by prepubescent boys who had been raised on the streets.

Walking across the parking lot afterwards, I felt as if I had been assaulted. I had a weeping inside that our culture had sunk so low. I felt deeply offended, yes, but even more, I felt a deep pain for the thought that a significant segment of our people talk like this and think it funny, think the orgies, the promiscuity, the drugs, the potty jokes, etc are acceptable to see, do, talk about....

I thought about someone dear to me who casually spoke about the many sex partners she had, and was upset that I was old fashioned when I told her that so much casual sex can be inhibiting to intimacy, love, commitment not to mention open one up to the danger of diseases.

I realize I come from a different time. I also am a student of history and know the signs of the fall of civilizations. Our great experiment here in America has been inspired. I see far too little inspiration these days and far too much hedonism.

We are a long way from Ozzie and Harriet. Father no longer knows best.The values and days of my childhood are faint echoes now. I pray we can find a way to choose values in these "modern" days that are spiritually attuned and lead to beautiful places.

We can make any choice, and with each choice come consequences. What consequences do we wish?

Meditating

This morning in my meditation, my mind wandered. I heard an inner voice say "Can you not stay with me?" I was transported to the Garden so long ago when Jesus prayed and the disciples slept.  I saw how a similar dynamic happens when we go to God but let our minds wander.

I ask myself - can I not stay with God? Are the gymnastics of the mind more intriguing and important than God?

My meditations have not been as regular as they once were. For me, part of the morning experience is saying to return to regularity of quiet times and retraining of my mind to stay still.

God, I ask for freedom. Freedom from the constraints that appear to currently bind me/us. Freedom from physical, mental and spiritual things that have gone askance. Freedom to do the things You are inspiring in me even now. Lead me to the rest of my life that is free and glorifies You.

Ride the Wave

As I reflect upon my life and what I know of the lives of others, I see waves of ups and downs. A straight line is bad news for it indicates no life. Yet it seems we all decry the waves of our lives.

Today is Thanksgiving. I was thinking this morning of the many Thanksgivings of my life and how wildly varied they have been. Some were set in homes filled with relatives and great aromas. Some were more solitary. Some were filled with hope and some despair. Whatever they were, they were all different.

Today is not my favorite Thanksgiving. If you know me, you know a bit about that. But nevertheless, the day continues irrespective of my circumstances. Whatever it will be, next Thanksgiving will be different - so hope leads me onward.

I am thankful that God has given me the freedom to experience life on earth and learn and grow, to love and forgive, to hope and dream and to find an inner spiritual connection that guides me no matter what part of the wave I am experiencing.

It has been said that contrast, yin/yang, is what brings the pleasure of this experience. Without darkness, light has little or no meaning. It is the shadows that bring definition. None of us came here with a contract in our hand saying all would be smooth sailing with no waves.

Part of the reason we came here is to flex our spiritual muscles and surf life, ride the waves, always remembering who we really are.

God bless you, bless us all and lead us to fearlessly ride the waves of ths life.

Listening

That wonderful inner voice is so rich with guidance, always available, and rarely obnoxious, so that one has to pay attention so as not to miss it.

Recently I thought I would try a small endeavor to teach and also make a little money. I felt a bit hesitant, but went ahead anyway with preparations. But, when it all come near the conclusion, the hassle was so great, that it was clearly out of harmony for me to proceed.

I am certain that if I had not heeded the second "sign", there would have been some very unhappy lessons ahead. I am thankful I have learned to listen at least some of the time.

As I have said many times, every negative thing in my life was proceeded by a warning that I ignored. I could always say "I knew I shouldn't have....."

My goal is to listen more carefully and be a good steward of the guidance given to me as such a precious gift. I wish to not need to say again "I knew I shouldn't have...."

Happy Birthday Day at Several Levels

1)  Happy birthday dear son. I want you to know that your mom has loved you dearly from the moment of conception until forever. I wish that you focus your life on the good, on the joys, on the uplifting memories and let the darker ones roll off of you. Don't let life get to you so that you forget who you are and what your life is about. Stay in the light. I send you tender hugs and kisses of a lifetime - remember them and how much you are loved.

2) My friend and mother of my dear, dear friend passed from earth today at the tender age of 100! As the physicist says, she has withdrawn her consciousness from the substance and matter of earth and now has entered the immense realm of all possibility. She is birthed into the next expression of life, and I am sure is having a glorious experience.

Currently I am reading "The Physics of the Soul," and am extremely fascinated! He says he can prove many of the tenets of major religions. So far, only 20% into it, and I am eager to read on. It's a bit heavy on science, but fortunately I have a bit of science background so can follow along, at least well enough to get the sense of his points.

This is a grand and glorious universe. What a thrill to be alive in it.

Psi Thoughts

I have just read Dr. Eben Alexander's books, "Proof of Heaven" and "Map of Heaven" which led me to a book by one of my old teachers, Lawrence LeShan. They brought up thoughts of many of my extra-ordinary experiences.

Musing on these in the shower, the word "parabola" kept coming to me with insistence. So Iooked it up to review its meaning and to see if it brought any light on my current thoughts about my beyond ordinary moments.

Parabola - a curve, any point is an equal distance from a fixed point and a fixed straight line. Any ray parallel to the axis of symmetry gets refleted off the surface straight to the focus. To understand this more, go to www.mathisfun.com and look at the great diagrams particularly the one called "Reflector."

Anyway, when I saw this diagram, I thought about my conscious awareness being the focus. Various streams coming from various awarenesses come to my focus. Usually the stream that the focus is aware of is the beta, the outer world, the common, the typical. But at other times, more rare streams come to my awareness at the focus. At those times I know things or see things or understand things without any apparent way.

So I'm thinking that perhaps the expandness I sometimes experience is always streaming toward my focus and some sort of shift in me allows it to come to my awareness. I can always know more, but I don't know how to turn it on or off.

I know that when I regularly meditate, it happens more often, not so much during meditation, but at some moment as I walk my life. I know when it holds a strong emotional trigger, it is more powerful and clear. I know I cannot force it to come, but allow it.

A small example happened 4 years ago. I had a sudden vision of my son walking past me. The scene was in black and white. In a monotone he said "Good-bye Mom."  At first I thought it was because he was on one of his tears of being angry at me and not talking with me. But my daughter called and told me his phone numbers were disconnected. We discovered he had sold his property and moved out of state at that time. I had no earthly way to know before that that he had picked up and left.

I could write a large number of personal examples, but don' want to get sidetracked here. I am exploring what on/or off the earth is going on??? Not  sure, but I am sure something amazing is going on all of the time.