Jacob Needleman's book, "Lost Christianity" is fascinating me. He includes Father Sylvan's journal, which is amazing and challenging.
A line I read this morning is bouncing around in my head and heart - Forgiveness is the seeing that carries the holy force of reconciliation.
It continues - God forgives; Christ forgives but actually the power of forgiveness lies with the Holy Spirit. I begin on a tiny scale, first with thought that seeks a freedom from the obvious egoistic reactions of like and dislike, a thought that is to some extent independent of desire. Thus I begin as a self-scientist. He goes on to his thesis that resonance is required. We must shift to resonance with Spirit for prayer, for the spiritual life we deeply desire.
I was struck by the idea of forgiveness as a kind of seeing that is not only my personal seeing, but seeing that comes with the holy force of reconciliation. To see as God sees, I think, is to see with compassion and understanding that is from Spirit not from ego. "Forgive them for they know not what they do," I think would be an example. This person we perceive we need to forgive (maybe myself) has wounded our ego only. This person is wounded or not aware or in internal turmoil. This person cries out to be seen, to be seen at the deepest level. We must align ourselves with the seeing of the Holy Spirit. We must do internal work to let go and to just be in resonance with Spirit. Be still and know that I am God.
So, we must be a self-scientist. What practices do we need to include in our daily lives? Meditation in some form is surely part of the answer. In the stillness, in the quiet, in the being with Spirit, in the dropping away of ego - a harmony, a resonance comes. maybe fleetingly at first, but eventually a more stable resonance rests upon us.